my day my sadness

difficulties ..
angry ..
disappointment ..
sadness ..
anxiety ..
had never left
tak pernah sekalipun absen dari hari ku.
especially .. when I'm alone
when there is only me and this room ..
and this atmosphere ..kali ini aku akan berusaha lebih keras untuk mengontrol diriku..
untuk mengendalikan diriku..
I know ..
everything I say could make other people upset ..
I will try as much as possible ..
if needed I will not say anything
but..
i remember..
sometime when i'm with their..
i think i'll be a freak people..
cause their always make me feel different
and you know all???
i didn't feel comfort when we are together
cause with you all is not my destination..
with you all.. is not my wish
with you all.. is just like nothing
cause when i see their face.. i had some strange feeling..
like dislike or something different..
always it is come again and again..
i don't like that strange feeling
it is disturbing me